Saturday, December 25, 2004
late
I can't believe my child is just now going to bed. Yes it's my fault I wanted a nap and let her take a late one with me. So here I am at4am just starting to play santa. (or about to). Sorry no rescent posts but since I got my script for my happy pill not much to vent about. But I can see I'm in for a long night so I better get started. Thanks for all the support for everyone and hang in there 2005 has got to be better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@ least i HOPE!!!!!!!
Monday, November 22, 2004
Short Week
Man! I bet no one is more glad we have a short week than I am. I plan on being in the holiday spirit. So prepare yourself for off tune carols.:) ONLY 2 days to go.
Saturday, November 20, 2004
Hell Call
Hell Call
Well after sitting here laughing hysterically....Here we go. Nobody told me that shrinks don't like the word crazy. I made the mistake of saying I was afraid he was going to tell me I was crazy and I guess he lectured me and asked me to define crazy. He said that he was my BRAIN doctor. "If you had a problem with your heart, you would go see a heart specialist and you wouldn't worry that he would tell you you are crazy." "I'm your brain specialist." He He Ha Ha If I'd known I would not have used the word crazy. Maybe I should have said "Mental". Nah doubt that would be any better. But anyways. He did ask me about my military time. Everyone knows that can make you mental. When I told him that those were 4 of the most enjoyable years of my life he automatically connected this with me being away from my mother. Go figure. He told me I presented an interesting case and asked If I was willing to try a medication my help or not but he would see me back in 2 weeks. Of course I want to try I guess. I tired of being sick so at this point I will practically try anything. He goes to his drug closet and pull out a box of samples and instructs me on how to take it. As I leave he tells me that if I have any questions about the medication to give him a call. This sounded strange but I just thanked him and left. I had been there approx. 1hr and 45 minutes. 45 minutes in the waiting room. Once I get home get my child in bed I open the box and start reading the package insert. OH SHIT!!!!! ok One other thing he told me before I left was to right down my dreams so that I could tell him about them on my next visit. One of the side effects of the med is vivid dreams. I really hope this is why he gave it to me. It is also to use to treat some mental disorders that I want specifically go into at this time. Look them up if you are that noisy because they were from very mild to very phycotic. He only gave me enough to get to the next visit so maybe he is experimenting with me. LOL. However I will always believe the InterHell contributed to this. Can't wait for your comments.
Well after sitting here laughing hysterically....Here we go. Nobody told me that shrinks don't like the word crazy. I made the mistake of saying I was afraid he was going to tell me I was crazy and I guess he lectured me and asked me to define crazy. He said that he was my BRAIN doctor. "If you had a problem with your heart, you would go see a heart specialist and you wouldn't worry that he would tell you you are crazy." "I'm your brain specialist." He He Ha Ha If I'd known I would not have used the word crazy. Maybe I should have said "Mental". Nah doubt that would be any better. But anyways. He did ask me about my military time. Everyone knows that can make you mental. When I told him that those were 4 of the most enjoyable years of my life he automatically connected this with me being away from my mother. Go figure. He told me I presented an interesting case and asked If I was willing to try a medication my help or not but he would see me back in 2 weeks. Of course I want to try I guess. I tired of being sick so at this point I will practically try anything. He goes to his drug closet and pull out a box of samples and instructs me on how to take it. As I leave he tells me that if I have any questions about the medication to give him a call. This sounded strange but I just thanked him and left. I had been there approx. 1hr and 45 minutes. 45 minutes in the waiting room. Once I get home get my child in bed I open the box and start reading the package insert. OH SHIT!!!!! ok One other thing he told me before I left was to right down my dreams so that I could tell him about them on my next visit. One of the side effects of the med is vivid dreams. I really hope this is why he gave it to me. It is also to use to treat some mental disorders that I want specifically go into at this time. Look them up if you are that noisy because they were from very mild to very phycotic. He only gave me enough to get to the next visit so maybe he is experimenting with me. LOL. However I will always believe the InterHell contributed to this. Can't wait for your comments.
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Tuesday @Hell Call
Friday, November 12, 2004
Friday should have been great
First I hope you all are shocked to see me here. But ooooh do I want to vent. I try to be the easiest person in the world to get along with although I know I propbally have my days just as everyone else does. Just because I pass out checks does NOT mean I can answer any questions. Honestly WHO doesn't know who they are suppose to ask those questions to. Am I being to available because whoa it sure seem like a lot of people are getting on my nerves. I can admit I have always had low tolerence to "dumb stuff", who has time or wants to concern themselves with it. Certainly not ME. I was once considered the BITCH of the group. People bothered me less. I still did my job but I got complaints that I was unaproachable. So they wanted me to change and now I guess I'm the only approachable person there is. I hope noone thinks I am try to be arrogant or anything because I'm not, and if you do think that, than by all means please call on someone else..............................I hope I want be shunned but believe it or not that place is the hell of my life.
